OR AN G E.

RIGHT now..
Listening to: CHRNO CRUSADE, since zheng's watching it.
Eating/drinking: some popcorn. perhaps bread and butter soon. lol
Reading: the chinese book that's required for school. shucks i'm still where i'm at a few weeks ago. -.-
Feeling: half dead. pass the rejuvenation potion please.
Thinking about: wow i am that bochup. lol
Doing: no idea.

uncertainty
written on 08.10.2004, at 7:21 p.m.

Exams are -finally- over... and i still feel the pressure.
I have a feeling that something's going to go wrong..
I didn't have enough time to complete some papers.
I know i've got some answers wrong.
I don't know if i am able to get into the stream of my choice...

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There are so many "what ifs" running in my mind right now. Mostly negative... Even though i've got monday and tuesday off school (which means mind off things pertaining to school), i can't help wondering about wednesday and thursday; what i'm going to get. What if i didn't get what i aimed for?
hiaz.... i know that i did not really do my best for some subjects, others not enough time to complete causing marks to be lost so easily.
Pent up frustration..? I need someone to tell me i'm able to do OK. hiaz... And hopefully, i'm able to get into double science. Or else i don't know what's going to happen.
Go to Monk's Hill Secondary to take the sciences? Or go to Vietnam to study in an international school? Or stay in school but take the single science instead?
"Confuse" can sum it all up... Including anxiety, worried... i can't help taking my mind off exams. Its just isn't easy to relax right now.
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Went out today. Went around walking... walking with 3 friends @ Bugis. One's gone back and the other two are here. One's going to be staying over. Thats about it for now.. -- Have i let some people down...? Am i wallowing in self pity? Or am i talking too much? i have no idea...

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